Boulderactive 2007
this year's boulder's left me with a bigger impression, compared to last year's boulder. i guess its cos this year, i went into the competition with a bit more hope, with perhaps some expectations (though i admit, i'm still too lenient with myself - afraid of failure? perhaps), versus last year when, i sadly (and regretfully, now) had practically no expectations of myself as a novice cat climber.
getting into intermediate finals truly came as a pleasant surprise, cos well frankly..with one bonus, i felt there was no chance of qualifying, and by the end of my 4 climbs i'd already come to terms with it. tho admittedly, i'm not proud of the way i qualified for finals in the end, (since it's a chance incident that one of the finalists couldnt make it down on sunday to climb, hence the bump up), i guess it's safe to say that i'm kinda satisfied with my performance at the finals. of course, there's definitely lots of room for improvement, and i know my weaknesses (still many to clear), but that's somehow encouraging, cos at least now i know what i need to train.
and the best thing of all, i have an excellent team to climb and train with, and other friends who like climbing (occasionally).
although i'm super tired, after 3 full days of boulderactive, i felt like typing this out tonight cos, i want to remember that this is how i feel, and at this point in time i have absolutely no regrets about my (potentially subconscious) change in commitment levels towards climbing. i love the way it gives me something to look forward to, people to have fun with, people to learn from (in more ways than just climbing), a way to keep fit (and achieve my lean and mean target, of course inspired only through climbing), that feeling of control over your body and your movements and the precision that it requires, and well, just basically..another stable, reliable, big thing in my life.
today i start to understand that the more important something becomes in your life, the greater its potential to bring you to that ultimate low point of disappointment and Frustration. thankfully, it works both ways. it can also bring you to greater levels of achievement and satisfaction.
well, sometimes we get the former, sometimes we get the latter. but the fact is, we're not giving up, are we?
we always work towards something happy-er. i really want to embalm this feeling, this feeling of sincere untainted non-cynical belief, that ultimately, we exist and we sustain, to strive for Greater things. things that will make the highs higher. i want to preserve this feeling so that i can recall it in times to come, times when self-doubt and unhappiness gets the better of me.
and now i promise (myself) that it's time to study hard for the finals. so that the other big thing in my life won't come crashing down.
this year's boulder's left me with a bigger impression, compared to last year's boulder. i guess its cos this year, i went into the competition with a bit more hope, with perhaps some expectations (though i admit, i'm still too lenient with myself - afraid of failure? perhaps), versus last year when, i sadly (and regretfully, now) had practically no expectations of myself as a novice cat climber.
getting into intermediate finals truly came as a pleasant surprise, cos well frankly..with one bonus, i felt there was no chance of qualifying, and by the end of my 4 climbs i'd already come to terms with it. tho admittedly, i'm not proud of the way i qualified for finals in the end, (since it's a chance incident that one of the finalists couldnt make it down on sunday to climb, hence the bump up), i guess it's safe to say that i'm kinda satisfied with my performance at the finals. of course, there's definitely lots of room for improvement, and i know my weaknesses (still many to clear), but that's somehow encouraging, cos at least now i know what i need to train.
and the best thing of all, i have an excellent team to climb and train with, and other friends who like climbing (occasionally).
although i'm super tired, after 3 full days of boulderactive, i felt like typing this out tonight cos, i want to remember that this is how i feel, and at this point in time i have absolutely no regrets about my (potentially subconscious) change in commitment levels towards climbing. i love the way it gives me something to look forward to, people to have fun with, people to learn from (in more ways than just climbing), a way to keep fit (and achieve my lean and mean target, of course inspired only through climbing), that feeling of control over your body and your movements and the precision that it requires, and well, just basically..another stable, reliable, big thing in my life.
today i start to understand that the more important something becomes in your life, the greater its potential to bring you to that ultimate low point of disappointment and Frustration. thankfully, it works both ways. it can also bring you to greater levels of achievement and satisfaction.
well, sometimes we get the former, sometimes we get the latter. but the fact is, we're not giving up, are we?
we always work towards something happy-er. i really want to embalm this feeling, this feeling of sincere untainted non-cynical belief, that ultimately, we exist and we sustain, to strive for Greater things. things that will make the highs higher. i want to preserve this feeling so that i can recall it in times to come, times when self-doubt and unhappiness gets the better of me.
and now i promise (myself) that it's time to study hard for the finals. so that the other big thing in my life won't come crashing down.
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