short post, for bleak moments.
feeling kinda low..hits you when you realise how tired you are, but how desperate you are, and that desperation begins to border on hopelessness. just spent ages (seemingly ages, at least) reading about herpes viruses..fought through moments of random transient falling asleepness...and when i end, all i'm left with is that feeling where you're not quite sure about what you've just read, and sadlymadly it took you so long to read.
and you dont want to move on to something else, (or go back to things you've alr learnt but have forgotten), cos you fear that you're gonna forget this new thing you supposedly know now. its like, trying to hold on to things before they slip right through your grasps again.
from the sheer weight, of your doubts and fears, weary heart, you'll be safe here..?
starting to question if i'm built for this kinda studying. what's the point if i cant cope with this enormously crazy and somewhat unsettling pressure of containing this amount of knowledge?
when the light disappears, and when this world's insincere..you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream, i'll scream with you..you'll be safe here