I asked for this. I put myself into this situation such that I'd make a decision not because I was forced into it, not because I had no other choice. I just need to find some form of confirmation within myself, and justification. And then I'll be able to commit fully, put everything behind me, and look upon this whole uni application process as one crazy growing up stage. It's definitely got its downs, but hey, that just made the ups more worth it. Jumping on beds kinda worth it.
Its just reassuring to know that a future awaits me. So is it in America or right here at home in Med.
Oh baby oh. I know that no matter what people tell me, in the end, this is a decision I have to make by myself, because I need to be able to have full responsibility for what I decide. It's just my way of doing something to make sure I never put myself in a position to regret. Never to regret. And when you allow yourself to dream, that's when you create the craziest urges, backed by nothing but a gut feel.

And as it tells its sorry tale
In harrowing detail
It's hollowness will haunt you.