i'm in hall now!
and i'm actually -kinda- hungry. but i've stuffed myself with these biscuits, so now i'm full, yet craving better food. for the first time, i left nus past eight, because i was in the library, reading about upper limbs. finally i know what's going on. and this is just the bones, i have yet to reach the muscles.
all my other lectures passed by in a whiz, i have no idea what went on, what we were supposed to learn, what others learnt. when i decide to be hardworking and glance through the ppts before the lecture, i realise that i have no clue what's going on, and that i need a textbook to bring me through the notes. and for that i feel silly reading the tb before i've been "taught" the topic. but now i've come to realise that we've gotta be reading up wayy before, if not you might as well bring a storybook into the lecture to entertain yourself. or just sleep in.
trying to fit myself into a hall routine, one that involves exercise hopefully.
i wonder how everyone's doing in america, and in ntu/smu, and in army, and in brunei. i know i havn't been blogging much, but well, i havnt really felt the great compulsion to talk about anything much.
brief updates-
--not a very successful dj night at somu's party, considering one of my speakers died miserably. and the other bordered on death.
--went for a walkathon on sunday morning that ended at rj, hang-ed with banos and lydia, then met nizam to catch up n stuff.
--booked back into camp. uh wait a minute, i meant, drove back to hall. :)
okay well, that's about it. i'm doing okay, august seems to be passing by faster than i thought it would, which is good in some ways, bad in others.
yet september looks promising.
sweet september. i want you.
oh and i bought myself a book, my sister's keeper. shall go read it in a few minutes.
g'night all.
oh and good music: James Blunt. i love his voice, i love the guitar-ishness.
my husband will sing and be a pro at the guitar.. i suck at learning it, so at least let me enjoy it.

wow.
august sixth. you're gone. i'm gonna miss you like crazy. msn and calling cards just won't quite do the job. but yeah. better than nothing.
holy shit.
everyone's left, about to leave, leaving, will leave eventually. holy shit.

okay, i think everyone's sick of reading my last post about driving.
truth is, i think i've finally rid myself of my terrible online routine, ever since my computer started giving problems. i guess it helps that i have other things going on in life as well, like my cousins who came over from dubai and uk, and going out with people that matter.
so, updates on my life.
it's already aug 2nd, school technically began unofficially last week, "officially" this week, and it actually trulytruly begins next week. orientation's been difficult for me, to tell the truth. i find myself wanting to go for it, then the next moment i feel like maybe i should be spending the time with people who will soon be leaving, then i think about uni and how its five years, but i think about my best friend and other close friends who will be leaving, most in the next two weeks, others later, and my cousins who leave on wed night, and i feel so, stretched, so confused as to how i should plan my life. i want to keep to the routine of taking things as it goes, but i'm scared that things will just move on without me. i think that routine only used to work in jc, where there was always time to make the decisions as it comes. but uni's shown me that you really need to be thinking ahead, knowing what you're getting yourself into.
then there's the hostel issue. how i went through the period of, should i hall, omg hall orientation starts so early, maybe i shouldn't hall, i dont really need a hostel, i didn't get my first choice hall, but hall is quite convenient, a place to put your stuff and study, sleep when you're studying late in school, rest, etc. so basically in the end, my parents being the more persistent and proactive lot, i decided to take hall. so now i'm staying at- hey wait a minute, correction.- so now i have a room at king edward.
i talk about my life and realise that i need change, that i want change, but then when i find that things which i'm so familiar with, people who i'm so familiar with, when i find that these aren't changing at the same pace as me, i'm suddenly thrown into a dilemma. this period of life where i want things to go at the same pace for everyone. i want it to work for everyone. i want the people in my life to be on the same frequency.
bloody hell. when will i move into hall? when will i finally accept that things are changing and i should perhaps prepare to get on with a new routine?
anyway so i'm going down for flag day today, missed the tin collection thing, but fang's helping bano and i take a tin each, and luckily enough for me, the area we were assigned to is bedok! which explains why i'm up so early with free time to blog.
so i've had.. the random occasional kamya sleepover :D, odac sleepover :), two farewell :/ parties, for kamya n kasturi n lubna, and the other for abobs, jayce (:(:, rg odac people (: and just the occasional going outs (:. and school o.o and more Actual Farewells :( :( :(.
this is going to be a difficult month.

i think i should get moving and head on down to meet my group. hope its fun/okay.