sadness :(

someone motivate me!

2.5 more days til the last two papers. and i haven't settled into full force revision. but i'm getting there!..finished kane & abel, so no more storybook to distract me. studied in bedok library yesterday, haha..and came home with 3 comics and 1 sandman book for saus. bedoklib's selection of comics is good! but anw, more importantly i've disciplinedly stashed them away til monday comes. oh, the kind bedok librarian allowed me to borrow with my driver's licence, cos i really really forgot that i didnt keep my i/c in my wallet anymore, and i have no idea where my library card escaped to. so, being a driver comes in useful in more ways than expected huh? (tho he told me to pls bring the right card next time. i think i looked desperate. haha.)

in other news, met meefen for a jog to east coast park this morning, omg. haha. it turned out to be some reallyyy long jog, which i died multiple times throughout. haha if meifen (thanks babe! haha) wasnt there i really would have activated my ezlink plan and escaped through the like vj underpass or bayshore underpass on the way back. and friends, do not be deceived, the sailing club's underpass is MILES away. i thought it was more or less directly opposite bedok camp, but no guys, its really far away. haha. (i exaggerate)

but in the end, it was a shiok jog (plus some walk la in my case), taking a shower after that was like, heavenly. and stretching. feeling a bit immobile now, cos of unusual tiredness of the legs. how'm i gonna run 10km next sunday with a decent timing!

haha okay, so that was the eventful start of my friday, (i keep thinking its saturday btw). good thing we ran this morning, since its raining now.

now its time to MUGMUGMUG. pharmaco, and patho, please stop evading me. and vice versa.

had a good day today, long day, but a good one. mugging wasnt so good, training was fun (argh 10km run coming soon!)..but just in general, its been a good day. laughter-filled, hug-filled, love-filled day.
feeling high, i dont want to let go
feel inspired again. to set things right, start anew..
new things, i need new things, new habits.
HAHHAHAAHHAHHAHAHAHHAppyyyyyy.
come back soon macha, i miss my best friend!

dec is coming soon! bayshorehangouts, swimmingnicecream macha?, jenxmasparties, nitamkamdee outings, "n" outings! wahaha
friends come home!

short post, for bleak moments.
feeling kinda low..hits you when you realise how tired you are, but how desperate you are, and that desperation begins to border on hopelessness. just spent ages (seemingly ages, at least) reading about herpes viruses..fought through moments of random transient falling asleepness...and when i end, all i'm left with is that feeling where you're not quite sure about what you've just read, and sadlymadly it took you so long to read.
and you dont want to move on to something else, (or go back to things you've alr learnt but have forgotten), cos you fear that you're gonna forget this new thing you supposedly know now. its like, trying to hold on to things before they slip right through your grasps again.
from the sheer weight, of your doubts and fears, weary heart, you'll be safe here..?
starting to question if i'm built for this kinda studying. what's the point if i cant cope with this enormously crazy and somewhat unsettling pressure of containing this amount of knowledge?
when the light disappears, and when this world's insincere..you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream, i'll scream with you..you'll be safe here