end of the third week of medicine posting at cgh.

can tell that i haven't quite been myself. or at least, i've not been the self i like. feel like something big's been cut out of my life, but i can't place it. it's not climbing (or rather the lack of), because i know i'm still welcome to climb with them despite not being ivp. now that kamya's down we've been having fun, and meeting up with nizam and andee too. bob's back, crys was back. whole lot of other great people are back too.
but still, it's not enough for me. cos for 5 out of the 7 days of the week, i come back truly drained. i'm angry that i'm not keeping up with work, i'm driven to improve yet every weekend passes by and it's the same thing again. i find no real connection between my weekdays and my weekends.
it's difficult to have not found that balance between my studies and my recreational time. and it makes me very unhappy. basically, ever since sch's started, i feel like i've not been doing anything for myself. and when i think about it, there's nothing anyone can do about it. i just have to step up and make life better.
since csfc's ended..(and the death of my blog).. jayce and i aced the n95 challenge, and as a result i've got a new phone, i went to malaysia with the climbers and had a fantastic time. in the last week of my holidays, i caught up with friends and revelled in the freedom of no obligations. and then i started my posting at cgh. good memories involve hanging out w kamya and the kamdees&nitams, catching people like jen during gatherings, odac gatherings that i didnt pon, and the past few meet-ups with climbers - truly love my batch, and talking to wonderful people like fen (congratulations on your new job my friend).

now to make life as fulfilling as it used to be, or more.