Sunday, October 29, 2006


so now i've come to realise that i need to

embrace the changes that life puts us through.
not everything's gonna go your way, but you know that some things might. and we use the blessed moments to work through the hard ones.
dreams last, for so long.

Friday, October 27, 2006


studying is a very tricksy thing.
you have to be in the mood for it, most importantly. then you have to have the environment for it, and then lastly, you must be in the right kinda company for the right kinda studying you want to do.
upon evaluation,
there are three main types of studyers.

1. there are people who like to question every doubt they have, the moment they come across it. their first instinct is, to look up and find an answer. or find someone with an answer. usually they look for someone with an answer, because its easier, and you can question and identify the exact solution to your exact problem.
these kinda people, should study with people who are the second kinda studyer:

2. these people are studying, but they welcome/dont mind a distraction. of course, they're studying and getting things done, but obviously they're not in a zone of studying, because the moment a distraction comes along, they are happy to respond to it. these distractions or little "mental breaks" come in many forms. they could be, questions from Studyer#1, they may be people who're walking by and stop to say hi, or they may simply be the constant urge to look for sth to do to take a break. like, walk to the vending machine, go to the toilet, fill up the waterbottle...etc. but of course, they do get their work done, when they are studying. dynamic studyers, i suppose.

3. then there are people who study in a zone. they enter the zone and that is it. they are unaware of things going on around them, and it doesnt bother them, cos that's the way they like it. but when they decide they need a break, they look around for a short break, and may inevitably always find it with Studyer#2, and occasionally Studyer#1. oh, plus they usually already have something planned for breaktime eg. at 12pm i'm going to eat lunch/walk to the co-op, and at 3pm i'm going to go for tutorial and at 6pm i have dinner with so-and-so, insert random loved one or randomly insert loved one. (just an eg.). the static studyer.

i think this studying season, i've mostly been a studyer#2. on the rare occasion i'm studyer#3. when i study with studyer#1s, i tend to become like studyer#1, cos its somehow an equalising effect. but i think i study best when i'm studyer#3.
and the rest of the time where i didnt fit these brief descriptions to a 70%-relevance match, chances are i wasn't really studying. i could have been passing time, waiting for something better to start.
what kinda studyer are you? and who have you been studying with?
honestly i feel studying with the wrong people might be distracting and detrimental, from a perfectly non-personal point of view. i have nothing against any kinda studyer in particular. just saying that, it makes a difference. then again, what kinda studyer i am depends on what subject i'm studying so i guess there is variability. generally i've found that i like to study alone, or just with one other person. or with the same kinda studyers. studied with a few new people recently..
mo6ilan, you're quite a good studypartner haha.

okay guess we'll talk about study environments some other time la huh? another crucial factor, i've come to realise.

in other news, FRIENDS AND FAMILY, i bought new climbing shoes today!
introducing, my new anasazi moccasym(: so exciting. and happifying. impulse decision to go today, but guess we were planning to buy new shoes soon. actually the first pair that caught my eye didn't have my size. but these were the most comfortable and appealing, i felt(: after many other try-ons.


gorgeous ah. SO sleek.

Friday, October 20, 2006

but i didnt know that we
we could break a silver lining
-tori amos, a sorta fairytale

being sick makes you realise that you just need to sit back and relax sometimes and not let stress get the better of you. why be so hard on yourself if all its going to do is make you feel like you're not doing enough, you're not good enough, you're not doing it right?
gotta learn to somehow translate the stress i put myself under into something more constructive and positive. first time in med i stayed home because i was sick (only other time mightve been in first sem of year 1 where i overslept, in which case i -stayed home- in hall, not really "home".)
well anyway, i've been sleeping a whole lot. in the last 24 hours i've slept about 17 hours. feel a lot better after that though. worth missing sch, even though it was cometoschoolinculturalcostumes-day, since its deepavali and hari raya festive season. shall take a look at the photos later.
in other news, while i was trying to feed scott some of my banana milk, he excitedly jumped onto the table and tipped it, thereby killing a goose. snapped at the neck, but something tells me this goose was glued together at its neck prior to this, so maybe we wont get into that much nagging when i tell the parents (mom, more specifically) later haha.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

the weeks have just been rolling by, and i dont think i've done anything spectacular with my time. so my ever-latent bad habits come back to haunt me, lack of time management, lack of motivation, procastination.
3 weeks more. basket.
it's like this: it's either now i revamp and do okay in CAs, or next year i suffer a miserable struggle through endless amounts of material in an attempt to undo damage done by the CAs, then later kick myself for screwing up opportunities. so, revamp it is. good job guys. easy conclusion.
anw in other news, dare to dream, friends?
k whee its sunday! a whole sunday at home! let's make sunday the start of NITA'S EVOLUTION & RESOLUTION. (and no, it's not funny. i'm not a primate (despite my monkey hands, crys!))